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the heart's flawed tape.I think we were in love with the dream,
not the present reality.
I've lost the ability to forgive,
which hurts more than failing to believe.
Yet, the mind cannot wait for eternities like the heart does.
It grows tired and bored, with synapses waiting for sparks
and dendrites to flex.
But no matter how many times the heart rewinds its tape,
replaying the same memories in continuous loops,
isolating intricate interactions and intimacies,
zooming in with the obsessive viewfinder,
blowing up images and frames until gradients blur
and distortions, contortions, deformations flow unite
the ending is still the same.
the heart, still yearns for closure
to make sense of all the torn segments
of memories and falsehoods.
the mind drags it, kicking and screaming,
making it focus
on what's in front of them.
Your NameI wish I knew your name.
The taste of it
Upon my lips.
The sound of it
On my breath.
The feel of it
In my skin.
I wish I knew your name.
Could hold onto it
Savor its warmth.
Could shout it up
Into the skies.
Could sleep with it
Safe in my arms.
I wish I knew your name.
I'm Sorry, Reggie.You were a gift from my ex.
A toy stuffed monkey.
I don't know if I can keep you anymore.
I don't know if I am the same boy
Who always loved and cared for you.
Room is running out in my heart.
I know you never asked to be a part
Of the crossfire, the collateral damage, a victim.
You deserve better, and I will make sure
You get every bit of love and devotion you need.
I know a fellow co-worker who is going home to Brazil
She would love to take care of you, and more
Than I ever could.
You always make me think of her
And a deep pain in the solar plexus results.
But this is no fault of yours.
I repeat, this is not your fault.
The blame is entirely on me.
I don't deserve your love and compassion.
I cuddled you during the nightmares of the first breakup.
But now that the second one has passed, I don't know
If I can do this any longer.
Reggie, you're making this difficult.
Your buttoned eyes, wide smile,
The heart sewn on your chest.
Loving everyone with such open honesty.
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